Well it's that time of the month again--the first Wednesday, the day we post on our thoughts on being an insecure writer. Thanks to the Insecure Writer's Support Group, I'm at it again. I missed it last month. And here's the reason--I freaked out!
What in blazes am I doing??? What made me think I could write a fantasy novel series???? Now that I've jumped in, and there's no turning back, I'm terrified!!! Someone throw me a life line!!!
Ok, I'm better now. Last month I faced the idea that what I've written so far is finally acceptable, and that is terrifying. For the last four years I've been playing this game: learning, trial and error, studying, trial and error, rinse and repeat. Now I may actually have something worth showing, and it scares the blazes out of me. I'm ready for the next round--professional edit, query letters, submissions, and book two etc. Teaching music was easy. I've never been more afraid of anything in my life.
Writing is a solitary field.I get lost in my own little world and not think anything of it. But the thought of inviting other people into that world is new, and maybe a little intimidating. Not that I don't like people, I just don't like rejection. My hopes are, the ones who decide to come into my world really want to be there and are just as excited about my world as I am. We will be a mutual support system for each other.
So there you have it. I said it. I may have been paralyzed last month, but I'm set for warp speed this month. There's no stopping me. I must face the risk!
Captain Kirk said it best. "Risk. Risk is our business." If I don't explore this new world, I will regret it for the rest of my life!